Irrelavant, Worthless, Good for Nothing

 I used to think No…I used to fear That no one thought of me If I wasn’t near.

The thought ate me up
and followed me everywhere.
It kept me up every night
As into the dark I stared,

Lost in a sea of thoughts
my fears grew and grew.
Shadows in the dark
of everything I ever knew,

Stop it, it’s too loud!
Please stop, it hurts!
I can’t take it all!
I press my hands on my ears.

Louder they grew,
Noisier they got,
The thoughts raging in me,
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!

Then one day…they stopped?
Or so I thought…
Then I heard the scream
IRRELEVANT, WORTHLESS, GOOD FOR NOTHING!

Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
IRRELEVANT! Stop it
WORTHLESS! No please
GOOD FOR NOTHING! I can’t hear this

I worked hard to not be those things,
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
But everything I did told me
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
I cried myself to sleep
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
I put music on really loud
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
I kept talking in fear of silence
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
The voice grew into faces
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
They’re going out, they don’t want you
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
What do you have to give?
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!
You’re always asking for help, why should you be helped?
Irrelevant, Worthless, Good for Nothing!